Recently I've been wondering if it's all really been worth it.

I worked hard in high school, got into a good college, now go to said college and study cinema and communications. But I have no clue what I want to do with my life. I know that I want to get involved in the film industry and I feel like cinema studies will definitely help push me into that. I love what I'm studying and I'm much more invested in school now that I've found what I want to study.

But the problem is, is that I don't know if I can make a career out of this. I guess I'm just really worrying over this since I have to officially declare my major at the end of the semester and start working towards internships. So far, I'm finding very few film internships in my city. I need to go to New York or California but I'm scared that I'll hate what I do in the internships and that is when I'll realize that this major is wrong for me and it'll be too late for me to change my mind.

I shouldn't fear too much, I suppose. They're building a movie studio that is set to open about a year before I graduate so hopefully the studio will still be hiring entry level jobs.

I just hope I'm making the right choice.